Yesterday, while spending time in fellowship with several wonderful women, I heard something very profound - "God, help me to remember this moment." In life, we get so busy, we often forget to stop and take in small moments, that would otherwise go unnoticed, forgotten or possibly even grumbled about.
Last night, I had just finished feeding Hunter, who had resumed his sleep as I held him for a few minutes. In my exhaustion (sometimes, the only proof I have that he even woke for feedings are the empty bottles that remain in the morning), I suddenly found myself more alert. I started looking at the scant pieces of hair atop his head, the small cradle cap dandruff pieces on his forehead. I studied his closed eyes, one clear and one matted from his clogged tear duct. I took in his precious button nose, his sweet, soft, rosy cheeks. I looked at his lips, pressed together in seriousness. I studied the small little chin that had some residual milk tracing its creases. I memorized his small ears, which are pointed and hairy (as are several babies). In that moment, I begged the Lord, "Please, let me remember this moment." I sat there, in my exhaustion, barely able to remember the bottle I just fed this small miracle and through tear-filled eyes, I tried with all my might to find something in that moment that was memorable. I wanted to find something that, in fifty years, when I'm holding my great-grandchildren, I can look back on to remember the early morning of November 17th, when I held my baby. I pleaded again, "Please, Lord, let me remember this moment." Suddenly, my sleeping baby's lips went from seriousness into a smile. A silent tear fell, "Thank you, Lord." Another smile. A third smile. Then, as if he knew that God had just used him to answer my prayer, he opened his eyes, looked at me, and went back to sleep.
Sometimes we get so caught up in the big things that we miss the small things. Last night, in the matter of five minutes, a prayer was said, a prayer was answered and a memory was made. I will remember that moment. Because in that moment, I saw God.
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